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I'm really sorry I keep making these annoying journals, I really don't want any attention or any pity, but I feel like this is eating me alive (as stupid and simple plan-y as that sounds). As you guys may know from previous journals, I have some pretty bad anxiety and lately its gotten so bad that I don't even really want to leave my house. I don't know why this is happening, but it is. I got my Driver's License recently and my mom asked me why I cried so much before the test and why I was so miserable and I told her about the anxiety attacks I have had behind the wheel and I told her about my anxiety. USING THE SPECIFIC WORD "ANXIETY" SO THAT SHE COULDN'T BRUSH IT OFF AS SOMETHING ELSE. She told me that I should learn some deep breathing exercises or something, to which I told her, "Yeah, but my knowing that I have it isn't going to make it go away." Since then, I have told her about my anxiety maybe three times in the past two weeks, being sure to use the word ANXIETY to make it clear.
The last time I brought it up, she didn't say anything.
Today, we went to a family friend's house for dinner and my sister and I were sitting at the table with one of our childhood friends, and they asked me if I had a job.
I told them no, and that I quit my first job.
They asked me why I quit.
I told them that it was just a lot for me.
My sister chimed in at this point and said, "I think it's just because you get overwhelmed way too easily."
She then followed that up by saying, "You're too sensitive."
I need professional help or I'm gonna lose my mind. I want to work and be normal, but I can't do that without help and I don't know why my family isn't helping me here. I can't remember the last time I felt truly okay and I know that that sounds really ew angsty 12yo but I'm 18 fucking years old and this should have been fixed but it's not, and I just need something to make me feel okay.
  • Drinking: Coffee
Atlas (Bioshock) by Waytogo-WaylonPark
Atlas (Bioshock)
I KNOW THAT HE CANONICALLY HAS BLACK/DARK BROWN HAIR BUT I LOVE BLONDE ATLAS AND THATS WHAT IT LOOKED LIKE 2K WAS GOING FOR ON HIS RADIO ICON SO DON'T FIGHT ME ON THAT ALL RIGHT

BUT HERE HE IS THE FIRST VIDEO GAME MAN I'VE EVER REALLY SWOONED FOR
HELL YES

THIS PICTURE WAS LOOSELY BASED ON A SCENE FROM MY FANFIC
IT JATLAS, SO IF YOU'RE INTERESTED AND WOULD LIKE TO READ IT,

IT'S HERE: archiveofourown.org/works/7120…

REBLOG THIS IMAGE HERE: beastthemaestro.tumblr.com/pos…
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I would like to take a moment of your time to express my gratitude to you all! I thank you for putting up with me all the time, haha. I don't feel like I say it enough, so I'll start now. THANK YOU. You guys have helped me for four years and even if we've never spoken, I appreciate you so much. You are all beautiful and I hope you never forget that. If you do, come talk to me, I'll remind you! You all mean so much to me and I wish that I could explain it properly in words, but as you're likely to have seen, writing really isn't my strong suit. With that said, I hope that I get to know each and every one of you in the future and if you ever want someone to vent to or just chat with, I'll be here for you! I love you all immeasurably. <3 C:

I don't think I've written it enough in this journal, so I'll type it again:
THANK YOU.
<3
  • Drinking: Coffee
Idk But It Bioshock by Waytogo-WaylonPark
Idk But It Bioshock
THIS LOOKED A LOT BETTER AS LINEART, BUT ITS TOO LATE TO GO BACK NOW, LOL, THE LAYERS ARE ALREADY COMPRESSED.
I ALSO HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I WAS GOING WITH THIS AND I DIDN'T EVEN INTEND ON DRAWING THE BACKGROUND, BUT YEAH

IT SWEATER DAD
AND ONE OF HIS MANY DAUGHTERS AHHHH

Reblog it here!: beastthemaestro.tumblr.com/pos…
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Milo
Artist | Student | Digital Art
United States
Hey everyone, my name is Milo, and I just wanted to say thank you, if you watch/look at/know of my account! I really appreciate your support with my writing and drawings.

Best Bro 5ever (lol): ShadowRealmShaymin <3 :D

They call me BeasttheMaestro on Steam, if you're interested *eyebrow wiggle*
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:icongoblinqueenselene:
GoblinQueenSelene Featured By Owner May 9, 2016
Thanks for the fav! :heart:
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Waytogo-WaylonPark Featured By Owner May 10, 2016  Student Digital Artist
No problem at all, friend! (*・∀・*)人(*・∀・*)
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ReineSomber Featured By Owner May 4, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the Watch c:
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Waytogo-WaylonPark Featured By Owner May 4, 2016  Student Digital Artist
No problem at all!! Your art is really cute c:
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DivideByZiro Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2016  Student General Artist
thank you so much for the favourite!! 
your art style is absolutely lovely, btw!!
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Waytogo-WaylonPark Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Oh goodness, no problem at all, friend!!
I love your art style too!! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧
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DivideByZiro Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2016  Student General Artist
ohmygosh, thank you so much <33
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POLISHhedgieFanGirl Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2016   General Artist
thanks for the llama ! 

your art is really cute, btw :'D   i think you've earned a watcher ;3
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Waytogo-WaylonPark Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2016  Student Digital Artist
No problem, friend!! And thank YOU, you're so sweet! x3
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POLISHhedgieFanGirl Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2016   General Artist
well, GOSH ! no problemo~ so are you :'D
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